Thursday, July 23, 2009

I'm trapped in this body and can't get out

So I've fixed my sleep schedule. I now wake up at the latest 7:30 AM. Today I woke up at 6:00 AM! I couldn't believe it. I've been going to sleep at 10:00 AM lately. Either way, before I was a night dweller and now I'm a morning dweller. You can't escape something.

How'd I do it, one might guess. Well I didn't sleep at all on Sunday. But that comes at a price too, every day I nap about two hours, well I did on Tuesday and today at any rate. I figure if I nap two hours every day I can make up for that sleep lost. Its working well so far.

And my dreams during those naps have been so... vivid. Two of them were lucid. One I was looking into a mirror, and I saw myself fragmented and strange. I read online, one way of becoming lucid is looking into a mirror. Often in the dream world, mirrors show strange things. Supposedly its risky too, because what you see can scare you into a nightmare. I wasn't scared I realize. for some reason. The oddest things happen in dreams and usually I am just really interested. I felt looking into the mirror that I was waking, because when I realized it was a dream it started to fall apart. It was so.. indescribable to be in that moment in between dreams and waking. I've never become lucid in that matter. Today I became lucid breathing through my nose while pinched. I've done it once before, but this time I tried flying. My body began to float in the air and the more I tried to rise higher in the room, the heavier I felt. I began to wake again until finally I woke. I have been remembering my dreams more often since the dream journal, which I've gotten lazy about lately, but I was starting to lose faith about becoming lucid again after I had a dream that tried to drown me awake. Its refreshing to be lucid again, I'm looking forward to sleeping tonight.

Going away is approaching soon too. I've been thinking about it.

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